"No." She thought it over carefully. The Doctor was more direct with himself but... "The dalek emperor would have changed it. And I needed it in a lot of places, not just once. It's all very greek tragedy really. And it would have changed things if I tried to be more direct each time. I'm no good at science, but I do remember observer's effect is a thing, yeah?"
A sigh. "If I told myself, 'Get back to the Doctor no matter what,' like the I said, the Dalek god would'a changed it, but I didn't know how to do that. Bad Wolf just keeps me following the bread crumb trail. Where it is, I'm supposed to be. And it's yanno, both the 3 Little Pigs, and Little Red Riding Hood, I dunno, I don't expect anyone else to get it, that's kind of the point, yeah? If anyone else got it, they'd mess it up. Margaret the Slitheen too. Maybe van Statten. UNIT for sure. I'm not even sure I could have left a more specific message at Bad Wolf Bay. It was the last sliver of a crack left that the Doctor could bridge the two Universes, send me a telepathic message to where he could get a hologram through by burning up a sun to say goodbye."
A groan. "Let's say I made that crack both to see him, and to name it Bad Wolf Bay so I could hunt him down; if I made it any bigger, both universes could be destroyed, and all the things kept out in the void could get in again. If I did anything less subtle than just naming it, then it wouldn't seem like a coincidence, so I wouldn't have started looking into trying things and then I wouldn't have saved the other timelines that needed saving. Anything longer just would take away -- my self. I'd just be programming myself, and I'd hate that. Not really living, is it?"
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Date: 2019-07-09 10:41 pm (UTC)A sigh. "If I told myself, 'Get back to the Doctor no matter what,' like the I said, the Dalek god would'a changed it, but I didn't know how to do that. Bad Wolf just keeps me following the bread crumb trail. Where it is, I'm supposed to be. And it's yanno, both the 3 Little Pigs, and Little Red Riding Hood, I dunno, I don't expect anyone else to get it, that's kind of the point, yeah? If anyone else got it, they'd mess it up. Margaret the Slitheen too. Maybe van Statten. UNIT for sure. I'm not even sure I could have left a more specific message at Bad Wolf Bay. It was the last sliver of a crack left that the Doctor could bridge the two Universes, send me a telepathic message to where he could get a hologram through by burning up a sun to say goodbye."
A groan. "Let's say I made that crack both to see him, and to name it Bad Wolf Bay so I could hunt him down; if I made it any bigger, both universes could be destroyed, and all the things kept out in the void could get in again. If I did anything less subtle than just naming it, then it wouldn't seem like a coincidence, so I wouldn't have started looking into trying things and then I wouldn't have saved the other timelines that needed saving. Anything longer just would take away -- my self. I'd just be programming myself, and I'd hate that. Not really living, is it?"